8/08/2012

With/out high heels

I'll tell you about my feelings and thoughts. It would be nice if you read and commented, but I don't force anybody to read or comment. Remember still that every comment can make me happy.

Here's also new logo
 I want to tell my feelings about my style or myself. Let you know about being boyish or girlish. I have ordered long hair-extensions once again. I had extensions on last year and were kinda girly. Till last spring, I thought that It wasn't really my scene, but actually, It's.

I can't be only boyish or girlish. It's like some kind of disorder between me and my sexuality. I like my "cool-casual"-style, but I miss being girly too. I'm not erasing jackets or tokyopunker-trousers away from my life, not really. I'm just going to test girl-looks again. Because I know it suits to me.

I love wearing high heels and skirts, but for some time, they haven't been suitable for me or my feelings. I have bit messy hell on my mind. I don't know, what do I want for real. I have to find myself, but It's not easy. I'm young, I have time. Sometimes I feel like, I'm not enough for myself. It's truth, I'm very critical and have bad habit to think other's opinions too much. First I should learn accept myself.

I don't want to try too much. I want to be okay with me. This isn't self-pity-talking. I want you all to know, what kind of person I'm. After every thing I've done, I'm thinking if someone is laughing to me. For last couple days, I haven't been looking myself or using my style. I feel little bit empty, I've been looking very ordinary. It's not okay for me, 'cause I feel being different.

I like visual kei-, rokku gyaru-, rock-, punk- and many other shades of styles. I'm gonna get long red hair. My skin is very pale, so I know that red suits. I want to let my hair rest now after many dying etc. I have natural curly hair, so I have to straighten my hair almost every day. For some reasons, my hair aren't in very good condition nowadays. Remember: if you are suffering, your whole body will suffer too. So extensions are not only for changes.

For the end (jumping from thing to other) I just want to express myself. Here in blog, I'll tell about my visions and life, without too private things. Sometimes I'll write this kind of posts.

Maybe I'm just scared that everyone is only laughing to me. I'm not anything special. I'm just Mila. Or Lygo. Thanks for every readers here.

P.S: I won't use disqus here anymore, It seems to be bit difficult to use for somebodies.

LYGO

11 Comment:

  1. I think the highest priority is really that you feel comfortable with yourself.

    I for example want to enable me to express every single part of my unique character.. the androgynous part, the girly part, the boyish part... Everything.
    But it's difficult - especially because of the money I'd need for wigs and stuff like that to make this visions I have come true. /:
    But I'm in process and feeling that you are on your way, 'creating the "you" you want to be' is a great feeling and it gives me strength and everything I need to go on and on...

    And I think you should take as much time as you need to accept yourself and grew in or with your style. In the end you never looked out of place or unsuitable in any of your photos.
    I really like your style and the things you show and though I'm not sure whether it may sound odd, like I try to kiss ass or if it actually does matter too much to you (who knows) I'd say that I really would like to support you in this process you're in. If it's possible somehow. :)

    I'd like to be there.
    In the end I'm just good in talking over stuff.
    At least I feel like that... but sometimes that is enough. I hope it's like that.

    y u k u .

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    1. You're just too adorable Yuku ♥ Thank you alot for this comment, I'm always happy when someone likes my style. And about logo, I think It's the best one at all

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  2. Now I totally forgot. Haha.
    I like the new logo. (;

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  3. mulla vähän samantyylinen fiilis ton pukeutumisen suhteen, että välillä on kiva pukeutua poikamaisesti ja sitte taas kohta on ikävä tyttömäistä : D

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    1. Onneksi en ole ainut! Itselläni on sentään se et oon molemmissa hyvin addiktoitunut rock-vaatteisiin yms. Pelkään vaan kun viime vuonna nousi niin hirveä haloo kun vaihdoin tyyliä > <

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    2. Älä pelkää muitten mielipiteitä. :3

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  4. Oon tykänny tosi paljon tosta siun nykysestä aika rockista pukeutumisesta mutta eihän se kenenkää muun asia tosiaan oo päättää että mitä kukaki pitää päällään :---D pääasia että olo on mukava ja viihtyy vaatteissaan !
    Meikäläiseltä mahtavan isot propsit siulle siitä että uskallat "vaihtaa" tyyliä melko radikaalistikin (^ylemmässä kommentissasi mainittu), oli tyyli kyllä hyvin toteutettu ^-^
    Laitan nyt anonyyminä kun en uskalla vielä tunnistautua.... :'D

    Keep it going !♥

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    1. Kiitos kovasti kommentistasi! Aion säilyttää rock-tyylini ja vaihdella tyyliä sen mukaan miltä tuntuu. Tällä hetkellä pitkät hiukset hotsittaa, samoin korkeat korot, mutta flipatut kerrostetut letit ja tummat silmämeikit pysyy aina suosikeissani hahah :) Kiitän ja älä pelkää esiintyä itsenäsi!

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  5. Teet vain niin, ku mikä tuntuu mukavalta ! Näytitpä sitten joka päivä täysin erilaiselta tai ikään kuin ''hylkäisit'' sellaiset pukeutumistyylit, mitä nyt käytät, ihan kokonaan. Pitää tuntee ulkomuotonsa mukavaks ja omaks ! ^^ Sen eteen.. Pitää tehä mitä vain - väliäkö muiden mielipiteistä !

    Hoono soomi

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    1. Aww thanksie! Komppaan sua kyllä täysin, kiitos kommentistas ♥

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  6. Aww, you look cool in girlish and boyish stuff, so you should absolutely wear what ever you feel like wearing~
    Also, looking forward to seeing you with long hair ^^. Where did you order your extensions from?

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